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Attic Dust

by Paul Bezooyen

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1.
Welcome II 02:59
2.
You Say 04:10
You say you’d do anything for Love, believing it’s a gift from above. But the lonely child inside is afraid of how much love hurts You say you’re quite happy and content. Your words make you sound confident. Self doubt is your companion. Whispers sweet nothings to your soul. Our words have become the clothes we wear. Chosen to suit each event. Black tie or sexy, drab or in vogue Dressed for the roles we invent You say you’re intrigued by the news Expressing your well reasoned views But it’s not how you feel. You’d rather watch them all burn in hell You say you’re a champion of the truth Seek solace in a confessional booth Your deeds and intentions are simply a plea for redemption. Our words have become the clothes we wear. Chosen to suit each event. Black tie or sexy, drab or in vogue Dressed for the roles we invent Teachers and Preachers with Bibles Talk shows and television idols Searching for answers just raises more questions Your words mean nothing at all. Your words mean nothing at all. Your words mean nothing at all. You say you’d do anything for Love. Believing it’s a gift from above. But somewhere deep inside memories reside Of how much your true love will cost How much a true lover loves How much your true love is asking….. of you.
3.
Sea of Love 03:37
How can I begin to find the ways in which to understand the mystery and mercy of this love I’ve come to know ? I realize such depth to her. Like the sea she calls to me. Shall I trust this churning sea to calm the yearning deep in me ? Oh like a tiny boat I will sail this sea of love. The storms and tides will help me grow. I’ll never be the same anymore. Now that seems so long ago, when futures merged, began to flow with sunny days and tearful nights. Through gales and storms we hung on tight. The stars above became our guide. Providence was on our side Still we dream of ports and shores. So much of life yet to explore Oh like a tiny boat we will sail this sea of love. And destiny will help us find safe harbor when the sailing day is done.
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In this quiet time before joining the big race again, I wonder: Have I told you lately all that you mean to me ? We’ve gone through some damn tough times on the road from romance to Love Don’t know what we did right but let’s keep doing it. Loving you day by day It all flies by so fast. Our life’s like a big house of cards With mortgages and RSPs, Job security and middle age Still, I look forward to getting grey on the road from romance to Love Be my lover and my best friend Loving me day by day Oh in this world of simulated luxury thin veneers fade and peel away But our battered love just gets better with age. It’s a valuable treasure in these modern times In this quiet time holding you close by my side I realize that words could never say all that you mean to me. There have been many lessons learned on the road from romance to Love Want to get to know you again and again Loving you day by day Loving you day by day
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6.
Still Life 04:31
Quiet Sunday afternoon, staring through the living room window Got nowhere to go, got nothing to do ‘cept be with you. The living room window becomes a still life picture show Grey snow clouds hang suspended over the blanket of white. Laid last night over the sleeping land The early setting sun sets the grey snow clouds on fire Instrumental Slow motion geese fly southward followed by a slow motion jet. Let them chase the sun. I’m content to snuggle up in bed. The sun will come again. Till then I just want to be with you. The sun will come again. Till then I just want to be with you. The sun will come again. Till then I just want to be with you.
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White light capillaries with thunder in the sky As he sits in his room with the stereo up high He's dreaming of singing for expanses of crowds while the music of the rain falls unheard from the clouds And he's high flying high high flying high He used to listen hard to the sounds of the land The shooting stars used to be the touch of Gods hand Funny how a little success is reflected in his dress and priorities selected And he's high flying high high flying high He's really not so bad you know He's only a little bit lost He's high flying high right now But you know he's coming back down He's halfway serious about an affair he's like to have Summer hot with no strings until the return of his love. He's packed up his values. They're a little in the way of his car and his job and fortune and fame And he's high flying high high flying high He's really not so bad you know Just TV's gone to his head Maybe a sunset will catch him by surprise while he's high fling high He'll be fearful of the dark because all he will sense is the fragile existence of this present tense He'll be introspective until he comes down to living hand in hand with his feet on the ground And he's high flying high high flying high
8.
Joni 03:43
Joni, how do you remember me ? Do you picture me as the guy that had life and love figured out ? Well maybe I did then, but then I believed in myself And since I saw you last I’ve been diving... diving ...diving and thinking of you.... and hoping that you Would envelope me as water after a diver’s dive is through Joni, how do you remember me ? Would I this trembling fool disillusion you ? Looking back and seeing you compared to a thousand girls You’re still the one my dreams and storms are colored with. I’ve spent August, September October and winter thinking of you Now I’ve got to take my chances and come out to see you Instrumental: Joni how do you remember me ? First impressions said to me “well there’s something here” Now you say there’s a man you’re attached to. I can’t go kicking and claiming a part of a life that has it’s own road to follow. Just my love’s got to go to someone. You’re the only one who’ll understand and Since July you’re the one who’s been on my heart... and mind... and soul...
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Time seems to stand still. I sit alone in silence, staring through my window into the night. Seems like white streetlamp light Is turning the rain to snow I’m a voyeur, Witness to this cycle of seasons in my life In these moments of quiet loneliness I find it so hard to accept that our love was as fragile as the summer. But crying wouldn’t keep our love from dying anymore than crying could stop this snow from falling. I’ll get myself together. I’ll be fine, after the pain. I remember us moving in here, Sitting on cardboard boxes eating take-out chicken. Whatever happened to all of those carefree Disney days ? In the absence of anything guilty And not wanting to blame myself or you I resolve that we’re victims of circumstance and fate Sometimes I think our love was like A self consuming falling star Flashing bright across the darkest sky Crying wouldn’t keep our love from dying Anymore than crying could stop the stars from falling I’ll get myself together. I’ll be fine, after the pain. Time never stands still I’m sitting here laughing and sucking on a beer I got new friends and a new girl and the new car you never liked anyway Then you and your new man suddenly appear from out of nowhere My adrenalin surges and emotions just slide out of control Now our eyes meet but we look away We find it so hard to accept That our love was as fragile as the summer Could trying have kept our love from dying? Could trying have kept this snow from falling The waitress brings another beer. I’ll be fine After the pain
10.
My lady and me Go together like the shore and the sea Water flooding in. Sand castles swept away in the tide. My lady and me Go together like the wind in the trees Air and leaves encounter. Wind and bough dance softly in the sun My lady and me Go together like the sweet harmony Interwoven notes set free Singing words of joy in the sun
11.
Attic Dust 03:30
Some houses have attics or basements in some, full of old boxes and things broken by time. Old photos and cards, love letters and jars things incomplete or obsolete or saved for rainy day or someday Some things have meaning remind us of ways the struggles of life caused us pain, or drove us insane But see how we have grown, the joys we have known Life would different if you had never agreed to venture on with me. History...of all we chose hidden in boxes all covered in dust Oh how these simple things trigger nostalgia for times long past The time will come when our souls depart And all of these boxes and things, worn out by time, will cease to have meaning, thrown out at the cleaning by those who follow behind with dusty old boxes of their own. History...of all they chose hidden in boxes all covered in dust Oh how those simple things trigger nostalgia for times long past Some houses have attics or basements in some, full of old boxes and things, broken by time. Old photos and cards, love letters and jars things incomplete or obsolete or saved for rainy day or someday or someday

about

I am very grateful that music has been such a big part of my life. My Dad sang and played mandolin, guitar, recorder and harmonica. He taught us to sing harmony by ear. I still see him marveling at the sound of his first stereo record player... so excited to have us hear strings on the right and horns on the left as he played a new “LP” album.

Now, at 66 years old, I find myself reflecting on all the ways music has been a constant source of nourishment for my mind and soul. My teenage angst was released on drums. Joni Mitchell and Bruce Cockburn were my inspiration to learn guitar and write songs. A whole new world of musical possibilities opened up when I got my little 4 track recorder. I’ve never looked back as I enjoyed learning and growing in the crafts of writing and recording music.

It’s been a long and winding, emotionally charged road that has lead to this solo album. The songs chosen are ones particularly meaningful to me. Except for the title track the songs were written a long time ago. They are much like old photographs found in the corner of a dusty attic or basement, evoking memories and emotions and reminding me of all the people and experiences that have shaped my life.

Some of these songs have been previously released on other albums however, my skills, equipment, software and experience have allowed me to produce much better versions.

I dedicate this album to all those with whom I collaborate. I am blessed to have had so much encouragement along the way. It has been particularly gratifying to have contributed to the work of the many other fine songwriters at The Hermit’s Music.

Lastly, it’s no accident that about half the songs were inspired by my relationship with my wife Catherine. She, more than anything or anyone, has helped me grow into a better person.... and that’s certainly worth singing about !

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released May 9, 2022

Album Credits:
I pretty much did everything on this album... but there are several notable exceptions: Dave Kilbank plays 12 string guitar on tracks 5, 7 & 11 and sings harmony on tracks, 7 and 11 Joe Spinelli plays bass on tracks 2, 4, 6, 8 and 11 Kenny Brault plays fretless bass on track 9
Marc Atkinson played acoustic lead guitar on track 2 Track 10 was produced by Marc and, except for my acoustic guitar, my voice, and Liane Watson singing a bit of harmony, Marc did all the rest.

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Paul Bezooyen Parksville, British Columbia

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My musical career has revolved around songwriting and studio work. For many years I've enjoyed producing my own music and & the music of others at my record label "The Hermit's Music". My joy lies in creating and collaboration. I Hope you enjoy my work & the work of other artists on our record label, (see link below) and that you might consider purchasing and sharing some of it. Cheers ! ... more

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